I Wish He Knows

I wish he knows

he never knows
knows how do i feel
and how do exactly i am

i just can keep quite
restrain everything in my heart
and feel everything alone

it's painful indeed
it's exhausting indeed

and i'll survive with all this condition
the condition that really torture me
torture my mind
torture everything in myself

maybe it's proper indeed for me
proper to feel

i want he to knows
knows how do painful me
my heartache that all this time i felt
even more painfully than he felt

AND THIS TIME, I KNOW
I REALLY FEEL

FEELING "ENVIOUS"
that really deep

one thing that you must know
i have sincere heart for you,
for loving you.

:')